Mary Tilden statement on her intent to return, 1733

1733 Mar. 12 To my Husband Stephen Tillden, since you utterly refuse to comply with the advice of ye Commity on your part, I do hereby offer my self to return to you, if you will discover your self willing to receive me as your Wiffe, ^and carey it to me as you ought to do, yet I think it very hard yt I must lye in the bosome of a man yt by his words and Actions hath made me jayjealouse of him, and in ye same maner, confirmed me therin, and yet refuse to Endeavour to remove ye same, yet I am advised yt it is my duty to Return, and I had rather depend on advise then Act by my own Judgmt least I should be wrong, and on the condition yt you will shew your self Willing as above said I will return and do for Ever you Every thing yt I can think a wiffe under my curcumstances aught to do for a husband, and as to the things yt you said in ye way of ^my coming home before the Commity, viz: returning the goods, and going out of ye cuntry, I say as to ye goodes Both your child and I have bein sick since I went from home, and yt I wanted cloos, for which I have used sum of them, and I cant return them all-, and as to my going out of ye country with you, I think it reasonable to be left to Act my Consine Conscience at the time I am called upon to go, and the mean time, I will Endeaver to behave my self as much as I can__ Lebanon march:ye:12th 1733 Mary Tillden