Jerusha Eddy relation of faith, 1807

Being laid under Great obligation to Love God and live to his Glory for his Many fold mercies to me for casting my Lot in a Land of Gospil Light And to be Born of Religious parents who Gave me up in Baptism in my Infantcy and instructed me in the ways of my duty to God I also Trust that God by his Spirit hath often been striving with me and calling me to Give up myself to him in a perticular manner I think God hath Called up my attention in times of sickness and deaths in my famaly but my Consern did not have an abiding impression until some time this Last fall then my consern appeared to be more powerful My tryals were Great on the wise of the Death of a son I found my- heart to Rise against God I thought I was hardly delt with and I was Greatly distressed until I so continued until sometime Last February then Light broke in on my mind. God then appeared amiable to me I then saw that Law of God to be Just and Good the Gospil plan of salvation appeared- amiable and all of Gods Dealing with me appeared Just and Right and if I am not deceived I was then inabled to Give up myself to God without Reserve- but I have by times Since that been in doubts and fears but still I have a hope in the mercy of God through a media[tor]. I think it my duty publickly to profess Christ before men and to attend to his ordinances- it is my desire to Joine the Church of Chr[ist] in this place I also ask thee prayers of the Church for me that I may not be deceived and that I may walk agreeably to the rules Christ hath laid down in his word. Dated at Middleboro July 2nd 1807 Jerusha Eddy